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I so want to go to the SingFest after I check out the list of singers who will be performing.

Alicia Keys
Panic at the Disco
Jason Mraz
One Republic
Stacie Orrico
Jamie Scott
Rick Astley
The Pussycat Dolls

Damn. The people that I bold will be more than enough for me to go for the concert. Plus they have pussycat dolls. Well I’m not a big fan of them BUT they are oh-so-hot.

Is on 2nd August, Sunday. From 12pm-11pm. Yes, 10 HOURS straight.

I can see and listen and drool over Jason Mraz, Alicia Keys, One Republic, Stacie Orrico and Pussycat dolls for 10 HOURS.

Jason Mraz!!!! *big wide sunshine smile* so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =)

The problem is, the ticket price. is freaking $200. Seeing our country’s currency keep deteriorating and the Singapore currency keep on shooting higher and faster than any guy’s erection. Well, I know it is not a pleasant example BUT I’m so upset. SIGH. After I calculate the price in OUR currency…is RM480!!!!!!

MY MOM WILL SO NOT LET ME GO FOR A RM480 BUCKS CONCERT.

and that’s the cheapest ticket.

I can picture her reaction right now…

Mom: WHAT? 480??? Do you have any idea how many pimples I have to squeeze? How many legs/armpits I have to wax? *bla bla bla for the remaining god knows how long* and end it with: U think your dad is Bill Gate? you are such a spoilt brat!

sigh. I have no idea why she loves to associate Bill Gate as my dad. I know he is super duper insanely rich BUT he seems…boring. I would be more than glad if my dad is Bono. At least he is cooler than Bill Gate. and he sings superb!!! PLUS he can get me FREE TICKETS. =D and u know those celebrity’s daughters tend to go out with SUPER HOT ACTOR. *gasp* Miller!!!!!! *grinning widely*

I sound so shallow.

What happened to my intellectual level?

Anyway, I’m gonna go watch my E! news now.

God. I really am shallow.

Hey I need to make it up to my beloved tv after not seeing it for almost 2 months k. I’m gonna go make love to it now before it gets cranky. =)

Foundation year just ended few days ago. It ended so abruptly that I felt, "that’s it? another year just passed by?" It has been a year full with ups and downs. I remembered when I was coming to KL from JB, I was picturing the prefect little life that I’m going to have without my family around and a brand new environment. You see, I like being in a brand new environment because that means people doesn’t know your past and is a great chance to start a new life. Anyway, the perfect little life that I was picturing and imagining was burst into many little bubbles. I have always been a dreamer who dream about unattainable and beautiful future and it is always many steps ahead from reality which is really really bad because you will get disappointed.

This whole year, taught me a lot. Sometimes I wonder what’s the real me and what’s the me that I have been fabricating? At times I even think that I have split personalities. Ha. I have no self identity. I’m flexible in personality and morality. You see, people always have a fixed image upon themselves by the others. I don’t know what’s mine, sometimes the fixed image given by the others to me make me ponder. Really? That’s me?? But if it is me why do I feel so not me? Sometimes you will behave so differently in front of different people. Why is it so?

Anyway, enough about me. I’m very self-centered. I know that. =p

Moving on, where should I further my studies after foundation?

Oops. Sorry. Is about me again. =)

Seriously, I don’t know. I have big ambitions/dreams which are all once again, unattainable. I hate reality. So I refuse to think about my real future. My expectations are way too high which is simply ridiculous because my requirements doesn’t even meet my high expectations. Ha. I should write children stories instead.

Anyway, I just done goggling. I love to goggle people/gossips/news. And I realize, there are so many beautiful/hot people in this world and all of them seem to have a really great life. What happened to ugly ducklings like us? I’m intoxicated with jealousy at that very moment. Yes I’m very bitter.=) Ha. Some people are born with the looks and some are born with the brains and some are born with talents and the best ones are the combination of all. Sigh. Seriously, I’m thinking of opting for plastic surgery. I have prejudice against people who undergo plastic surgery yet secretly I want it. Ha. At least it helps with my self-esteem issue. (Very serious due to the terrible childhood I been through. haha.) I’m gonna get bigger eyes, higher nose, higher cheekbones, smaller face, sharper chin, bigger boobs, perfect pout, flat tummy, small perky ass and liposuction. Oh yes and firming. And I want half of Einstein’s brain. Perfecto! =)

Although our class is far from perfect, I’m going to miss every single one of them. Especially people that I always ber-bonding with. Haha. I hate goodbyes. I just simply can’t lar. There was a point in my life where I felt like cutting ties with everyone that I known because somehow someday I know that we will part and go different ways. I so hate it when it happens. If we know that humans need to be separated one day then why do we need relationships? Why do we have to get to know each other, ber-bonding, share all the happy & sad moments together then poof. Gone. Bye. No more. Yes you will say you can always maintain relationships through all the technology but it is gonna be different. The feeling, emotion, experiences that you guys go through as a group and individually is going to cause differences. Plus, people in distance drifted apart.

Phew. That’s all I guess. =) I’m gonna get some sleep now & balik kampung later. =)

Oh shit I have my Psycho & econs paper due in less than erm…5 hours. Still half way through my notes. Oh well typical me.

Anyway, I’m such a PIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. OMG yes. I just realized that I ate 6 meals today! Well maybe even yesterday and the day before and before BUT OMG. I’m getting fatter and rounder. Even Ting Ting and Doreen said I’m getting rounder. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
*wailing, yelling, screaming silently*

Breakfast: 2 slices of toast (healthiest of the day) =)
Lunch: Ban Mee. (high in carbohydrates)
Afternoon Break: Sausage bun (high in both carbohydrates & fats)
Dinner: Chu Rou Fen. (some sort of pork noodles. yes is fattening cause is flour and it contains of carbohydrates)
Supper: Ramli burger (super niceeeeeeeeee), french fries and ice lemon tea. (Well need I say more? It contains of all the deadly sins in the world.)
Late Night Supper: (haha I invent it.) Coffee and biscuits. (carbohydrates)

The problem is, when you consume that much of carbohydrates and fats, you are supposed to burn it off by moving around. Instead, I just sit in front of my lappie and mourn over my sinful indulgence and wonder why I can’t not succumb to the dark side/temptations. Sigh. I miss roti naan cheese. Ha. I can’t bear looking myself into the mirror anymore let alone weight myself. =(

I calculated my expenses for last month and guess what? Food expenses tops it all. ALL.

Goodbye to my supposedly-one-day-to-be Fergalicious Elaine. Welcome Flabbylicious Elaine.

How am I supposed to go for my men hunt and get married like this larrrrrrrrrrrrr. I can feel my fats floating. ARGH.

I wanna have a new circle of friends whom practically hates food.

I realize I always blog when I’m not supposed to. Haha. Anyway, finals is tomorrow and I haven’t start studying yet. Not even a bit. Seriously. What I did for the whole study week? Well wake up at 2/3 pm then eat my brunch, go online, watch some tv dramas and go gagagaga then went out to eat dinner, jalan sini sana, talk talk talk, come home/next door, continue to talk/go online, eat supper, make a promise will start study tomorrow then ultimately,sleep. Yes that’s the kind of life I have been leading for the past week. What a productive study week huh?

My dream of getting all A’s seems so out of reach now seemingly that I did rather badly for my moral, econs and english during mid term and the fact that I haven’t start studying for my finals.

Anyway, I’m getting a little philosophical now. So, yes, people complain that life is unfair. Since when life is ever fair? When it is fair to you it is not fair to the others.
Ever thought of that? Hmm. Everybody has their fair-times and unfair-times. But I believe somehow that one can work for the fair-times. When you think life is treating you unfairly, look back and ponder what went wrong. Of course I mean you yourself. No one is gonna be on top all the time. You are bound to fall one day. What goes up must come down. So when you fall, think back what you have done wrong. Or maybe your work is not that satisfying than you actually thought. Again, my mom always said, "always picture yourself as half a pail of water, not full, cause if that’s the case, you will never learn and grow" So, when life is unfair to you, don’t pin-point, think back, yes sometimes circumstances can contribute to your unfairness but think again, do you seriously think circumstances control it all?

Ha that’s the end of my philosophical moment. I want to get married larrrrrrrr. Hahaha yes besides rotting away for this whole week, I have been fantasizing about my wedding. =) I’m gonna get married at Bora-Bora and tour the whole Europe for my honeymoon. Haha. My wedding singers gonna be Michael Buble, Jason Mraz, Robbie Williams(the sentimental part not the stripping part) and Jon McLaughlin. I know only can have one wedding singer but whatever lar. The theme of the wedding is going to be white. =) White roses with lavenders and the dress code will be  smart-beach-wear type. (I wonder do they have those clothes) My wedding songs are still compiling but so far:
-"I’m Yours" by Jason Mraz
-"Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls
-"She’s the one" by Robbie Williams
-"You & Me" by Lifehouse
-"L.O.V.E" by Michael Buble
-"Your Guardian Angel" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
-"Look after you" by The Fray

I’m actually very realistic. I even thought of what happens if I divorce. Oh well, my divorce song going to be:
-"How do you mend a broken heart" by Michael Buble
-"Goodbye to you" by Michelle Branch
-"I will survive" by Destiny Child
-"Life Goes On" by Leanne Rimes
The list is uncompleted because I haven’t really give much thought for my divorce.
I’m gonna have a divorce party in Spain with lots of strippers. Hahahaha.

*smacks* back to reality! Time for me to go to start studying. Moral!!!! ==’