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Ok I’m so bored and irritated by the hot weather over here right now which inspired me to post something really HOT.

My Favourites ALL Time.

*drum rolls please*
*rankings do not determine who comes first in my heart* =)

1. Wentworth Miller

Do I really need to say MORE? Miller is SOOOOO devoted and lovely and smart and stubborn and insanely sorrow and oh so cute in Prison Break. smile or not he is capable of melting me from ice berg in Antarctica to water and evaporated into the thin air. *gasps*

I would love to have a romantic yet dangerous encounter with him in let’s say, Titanic+ Batman kinda romance+thriller?

*if you want to know more about my obsession towards him go to my archives and click on Wentworth Miller.*

2. Patrick Dempsey aka McDreamy

Wow it is not easy to find a nice picture of my Mcdreamy. Not because he is ugly or what, is because his charm is beyond the pictures. Watch Grey’s Anatomy and you would realize how charming he is and how attracted you are to him like a mouse to a cheese. Look at his always watery eyes and that heartbreaking smile of his makes you go all aww and want to run over and give him a big hug and a kiss on his nose and play with his hair. Yes I always wanted to ruffle(is there such a word?) through his hair. He always looks like a lost puppy. *Awwwww.*

I would love to meet him in…hospitals whereas I’m the dying patient and he as the doc swore not to fall for another even after I have passed away.

3. James McAvoy

He might not be one of those big stars and might not even capture your attention at first glance. But try to take a little time, you will realize he is like some form of slow drug, so captivating and deadly. From Atonement to Wanted to Penelope, he never failed to amaze me. (I’m going to watch “Becoming Jane”!) That sorrow boyish look with that charm of his captivated me. *Aahhhh.*

I wanna meet him in Penelope kinda era. You know the whole indie yet fairy tale kinda life? Yea he shall be my prince charming but being separated by family hatred bla bla that kinda stuff =)

4. Hugh Jackman

He is like the finest most perfecto gentlemen you could ever met. If there is ever any resurrected finest duke he would be the one. That broad shoulder, perfect height enough to make you feel small and protected in his strong muscular arms and that sexy accent. Haha. I adored him in every single movie from Swordfish, Van Helsing, Kate & Leopold, X-Men, Deception and others. He always makes me feel like riding away with him on the horse to a field of wildflowers.  *gaaaahhhh*

Well he shall be MY duke back in those Victorian era. My knight in the shining armor who will save me from a forced marriage to the tyrant king. =p

5. Jamie Oliver

Unlike other chefs on tv with the hot temper and cranckiness, Jamie is always so soft and cuteeeee. There is definitely nothing sexier than a man in an apron. *heee* Hey I would marry him ok because I don’t have to cook. Fine although he did put on some weight BUT he is STILL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO adorable and cute and lovable and huggable and goofy. and THAT accent. ;D

Ohhhh I wanna meet him while I’m halfway touring in French and decided to work in a bakery to learn how to bake and he is my chef and we shall have some hot hungry romance hahaha.

6. Naz

I want to clarify that I’m not all into blue eyes blonde hair dudes (prefer dark-haired), hey I do like asians as well ok. This is one of the rare photos of Naz because is SO hard to find a picture on local artists. Sigh. Anyway, first look, you might think he is snobbish and arrogant but try and watch “Ghost” which is the BEST local drama series EVER. You would find that he is actually so charming and annoying in a cute way. I’m so in love with him after the whole season. :d

Hmm. Maybe someone that I bumped into accidentally. We will argue all day long but still cuddle at the end of it. =)

7. Jason Mraz

Remember my last post mentioning that I would fly to somewhere and hopefully meet someone who would be as laid back as I do? Well Jason Mraz would be the one. He can be the low life singer who sings during weddings or even teach kids music. He would sing me “Im Yours” everyday and “The Beauty in Ugly” whenever I’m feeling ugly with his guitar, the goofy smile and his messy hair underneath the cute hat.

Well like I said above, we would tour around the world together. =)

8. Daniel Wu

Heee. Finally a chinese! =) Well he is not exactly a pure chinese but well I never really do like pure chinese despite I’m one Haha. He is so the very hot lar. My god. Although he has this bad boy looks (he is in real life anyway) but that’s what makes him so ohhh la laaaaa.

Ok. He is one of those potential hot flings material. Nothing more. LOL.

9. Richard Gere

I know I know. He is almost three times my age and can almost be my dad or even grandad but you so can’t deny the fact that this man aged like the finest wine! So nice if he’s my dad. No wait, that would be incest. But hell if I have a dad like that, I don’t care!

Awww. That’s what he makes me feel. =p We can have those retired romance you know. Like those couple walking on the beach holding hands, read books to each other on the garden bench and dancing in the kitchen.

Last but not least…

10. Heath Ledger

I feel so nostalgic whenever talking about him. Sigh. Oh well at least he’s on my desktop wallpaper for god knows how many months. Even longer than Miller. I would never forget his wide sunshine-y smile, his talents, his charm and his oh so cute looks. =(

Well IF he is STILL alive, we would have the sweetest romance. =) I would try to heal all his wounds and pain.

When was the last time you truly felt happy? Are you doing what you enjoyed doing? Is this something that you really want to do? But most importantly, are you happy?

No I’m not. I’m dying. Literally.

Do you know what I really want to do? Pack a luggage, grab my passport, buy a ticket to somewhere in Europe and start touring. I will stay in a country for couple of months waking up in a small cottage with an old couple(not in the same room of course) and work in a hidden bakery or cafe or even those cute little antique shops to earn my living expenses. Probably find an artistic man who shared the same laid back lifestyle as I do and tour around together. We will go to the gardens every weekend, go around the place holding a map, listen to their music, watch their films, learn their language, shop in vintage shop and maybe take up some short course along the way and spent most of the time breathing in their culture and language and people and lifestyle. Just take in, soak in and breathe in.

That’s exactly what I want to do.

Sometimes I feel that I’m just not cut out for college. I’m tired and exhausted all the time. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time and I hate being tied down to all these. Obligations, boundaries, rules, dramas, people bla bla bla.

Oh well. I’m hoping that maybe one day, some day, I have the courage to just leave everything behind me. Then I will fly. =)

I have my PR assignment due on this thursday 9am which is just the day after tomorrow and I have yet to start. Hell, I haven’t even picked my campaign yet. The people in charged will only give me a feedback tomorrow or day after tomorrow. Great. Well blamed it on my procrastination. I have been so screwed over by all my assignments.Blek.

Moving on, my life currently is…stagnant. The feelings that I’m going through is indescribable. My emotions are so drained up from my body. That day, I finally shattered. Finally, I broke into million little pieces. Finally, I let my emotions overrun me. Finally, I acknowledged the pain, the grief, the sadness, the reality, the fantasy, the everything and nothing at all. Finally, I let go of myself. I’m rising above and telling myself that it will pass. somehow. But right now. I just want to be miserable.
When you try your best but you don’t succeed,

when you get what you want but not what you need,

when you feel so tired but you can’t sleep,

stuck in reverse.

When the tears come streaming down your face,

when you lost something you can’t replace,

when you love someone but it goes to waste,

could it be worse?