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When was the last time you truly felt happy? Are you doing what you enjoyed doing? Is this something that you really want to do? But most importantly, are you happy?

No I’m not. I’m dying. Literally.

Do you know what I really want to do? Pack a luggage, grab my passport, buy a ticket to somewhere in Europe and start touring. I will stay in a country for couple of months waking up in a small cottage with an old couple(not in the same room of course) and work in a hidden bakery or cafe or even those cute little antique shops to earn my living expenses. Probably find an artistic man who shared the same laid back lifestyle as I do and tour around together. We will go to the gardens every weekend, go around the place holding a map, listen to their music, watch their films, learn their language, shop in vintage shop and maybe take up some short course along the way and spent most of the time breathing in their culture and language and people and lifestyle. Just take in, soak in and breathe in.

That’s exactly what I want to do.

Sometimes I feel that I’m just not cut out for college. I’m tired and exhausted all the time. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time and I hate being tied down to all these. Obligations, boundaries, rules, dramas, people bla bla bla.

Oh well. I’m hoping that maybe one day, some day, I have the courage to just leave everything behind me. Then I will fly. =)